You and Me Tuesday

Tuesday, August 23, 1988

When a fellow classmate asked if it was safe to have sex during the last few months of pregnancy, Nurse Bridges began a textbook discussion on safe ways expectant parents can engage in sexual relations during the third trimester. It was an important time, she said, for moms and dads to cherish their alone time before baby comes along.

Listening intently to the conversation, Maddie sat there on the floor next to David with her head resting against his shoulder. She found herself lost in thought… longing for the closeness she once felt with him… the passionate nights they spent together. She knew she gave him a hard time back then, with all her ridiculous morning-after pacts. Not to mention how she practically destroyed him when she left him in the middle of the night to fly off to Chicago, only to return months later married to a man she didn't even know. She really meant it when she'd told him she wanted to start over with a clean slate, but she couldn't blame him for being hesitant. She'd made a lot of mistakes and she knew it.

Looking around and hearing some of the couples talk about their sex lives seemed to ignite a flame deep within her. A flame that had nearly been snuffed out, but there, she could feel it… a spark, and then a gentle warmth that spread all throughout her body. She began contemplating… wondering if maybe… could they, should they… maybe tonight?

Suddenly she was distracted. David had placed his hand on her thigh, shaking it slightly to get her attention.

'You okay? For a moment there you looked like you were a million miles away.'

Shyly, Maddie looked down and smiled. 'Yeah,' she whispered, 'I'm okay.'

She took his hand, and held it in her lap. After a moment or two, she began to slowly rub his palm with her thumb. David took notice of the subtle gesture, and quickly realized Maddie was trying to tell him something. He looked over at her, and saw her bright blue eyes staring back at him. They were conveying a need… a desire… he hadn't seen in a very long time.

Was the conversation in class making her think about… sex? David's heart started to beat faster.

'Do you want to?' he asked in a soft whisper, careful not to let the others in the class hear him.

Without taking her eyes off of his, she shrugged. She did not feel certain, but she was open to the idea. They smiled sweetly at each other.

David leaned towards her and said, 'We'll talk later.' The Lamaze class had only just begun.

When class ended, David took Maddie's hand and they quietly walked to the car. Like a perfect gentleman, he held open the door while she got in, and then walked around to get in on the other side.

Once seated, David looked over at Maddie, who could not possibly look any more uncomfortable. She had her seatback pulled up all the way, her belt snug and tight, her hands folded neatly on her belly, and her eyes straight ahead.

'Maddie, you're looking a little tense. Would it help if I rubbed your shoulders? Maybe I could give you a soothing back massage?' he said suggestively. He reached out to touch her, but pulled his hand back when she snapped at him.

'I am not tense!'

'Really!? You could've fooled me!' Settling back into his seat, he said, 'Look, I'm not gonna play this game. You said something in there. I thought we could talk about it, but you obviously don't wanna talk about it, so that's it.'

Getting heated, Maddie said, 'Play this game? What game are you talking about?'

David rolled his eyes. She knew what she was doing, but now he had to spell it out for her.

'Maddie, you know what you said, or rather, what you implied to me in there. You know. And now you don't wanna talk about it. But that's fine. I'll just drive you home. It's okay, don't worry about it.'

The last thing he wanted to do was to stress her out. So, he started the car, and they drove the 20 minutes to her house in silence.

When they finally parked in her driveway, Maddie reached out for David's hand.

'I wouldn't do that if I were you. That's what got this whole tiff started in the first place.'

She slowly shook her head back and forth, but she did not let go of his hand. Instead, she brought it up to her cheek, and kissed his palm.

'I'm sorry,' she looked over at him with puppy dog eyes. 'Please forgive me?'

He looked at her face, and he was putty in her hands. How could he ever stay mad at her? He turned to her… sporting that sexy lop-sided grin of his, and said, 'You're forgiven.'

Looking out at the night sky, doing everything to avoid his stare, she said, 'And you're right… all that talk about sex during pregnancy was making me think… about us… you know?'

'Yes, I do know,' he said, nodding his head in total agreement. 'Maddie, are you saying that you want to have sex with me?'

'I'm saying… I don't know… maybe?'

'Well, I for one, would love to have sex with you.'

That got her to look at him. 'You would, would you?'

'If your doctor said it was okay. I don't wanna hurt you or the baby.'

'No, no… my doctor said that it's fine.'

'Is there anything I can say or do to help you decide? I mean, let's look at the pros and cons here. What's one positive reason you and I should have sex?'

Maddie just sat there looking at him with an amused expression on her face.

'Okay, let me help here. Number one… it's pleasurable, Maddie. It feels good, it relaxes you. Am I right?'

David looked at her, hoping she'd agree.

'Well, yes… that is true, and you are right. But that shouldn't be the only reason two people have sex, David,' she teased.

'Exactly, and I know where you're headed here. Intimacy, right? Being close with the person you love. Maddie, you and I… we haven't been intimate in months,' he said, his tone becoming more serious. 'And I don't know about you, but I really miss it.' He looked at her expectantly.

'I miss it, too.'

'So, whaddya say? Feel like hitting the sheets? Taking a roll in the hay?' David ran his fingers through her hair, placing his hand on her shoulder. 'Making love?'

'I'm just not sure,' she said. He could hear the frustration in her voice.

'C'mon, Maddie, what is it? There's something you're not saying. I know you, and I can tell you're holding back.'

'David, look at me. I'm 6 months pregnant wearing an oversized blouse and maternity pants. I don't feel the least bit attractive… I don't feel sexy. What I feel is…,' struggling to find the right word, 'I feel… huge… enormous!' Not really knowing what else to do, she leaned against the passenger side door and covered her face with her hand.

David was frustrated. 'Maddie, in case you don't notice, I do look at you… all the time. And I think you are gorgeous! And very, very sexy!'

'But I don't feel sexy!' she yelled back.

'So sexy and so hot… you've got me burnin' up over here! God, I feel like I might explode if you don't let me take you into that house tonight! Damn it, Maddie, can't you see that I'm crazy about you! I just want to be with you!'

Realizing he may have become too aggressive, he pressed back in his seat, took a deep breath and closed his eyes.

'I'm sorry, Maddie, I shouldn't have spoken to you like that. I'll just call a cab and go home.'

Having made up her mind, Maddie whispered, 'Take me in that house, David.'

His eyes flew open when he heard her say those words.

When they walked into her bedroom, Maddie went to sit at the edge of the bed. A few moments ago in the car, she had felt so certain, but now her nerves were starting to get the best of her again. This felt awkward. It felt nothing like the nights they used to spend together when their trips to the bedroom were a blur of frenzied passion.

Trying to set a mood, David offered, 'Would you like a little soft music? Maybe I could light some candles?'

'No candles… please. A little instrumental music would be nice.' David went to the stereo and found the perfect record to play.

He pulled off his sweatshirt and walked back over to where Maddie was seated on the bed. She felt her heart skip a beat when he reached for her hands, pulling her up and embracing her in his arms. They began to sway back and forth to the music… not really dancing, but not standing still. David buried his nose in her wavy blonde hair. He could smell her perfume… a hint of fresh flowers. The scent excited him.

Likewise, the smell of his musky cologne combined with his own masculine scent was intoxicating to Maddie, and she began to run her hands up and down David's bare back. She loved the feel of his smooth skin under her fingertips.

He took her face in his hands and was drawn to her mouth, the way a parched man would be drawn to a mirage in the desert. Except, unlike a mirage, she was real. He could see her, touch her, and taste her. He kissed her softly at first, then deepened the kiss when he could feel her hot breath on his face and her tongue on his lips.

While his mouth was leaving a path of hot kisses all down her neck, David's hands slowly removed Maddie's blouse and bra… button by button. Her skin was warm and soft, and everywhere he touched, he left behind a trail of goosebumps. He paid special attention to her breasts, now fuller due to the pregnancy. With every squeeze and lick, she would arch her back and moan with pleasure.

Maddie's hands explored every inch of David's chest, his muscular arms and abs. She ran her fingers through his hair, and sucked on his neck, just long enough to leave a love bite he'd be proud of in the morning. Her fingers played at the top of his jeans, sneaking under the fabric as far as they could go.

David slowly turned Maddie around and slid his hands around her waist so that he could play with her breasts while pressing his body up against her from behind. His lips found that spot on the back of her neck, and he could feel her body quiver. His hand snuck between her legs, and through the fabric of her pants, he could feel how aroused she was. He removed her leggings and panties, and tossed them to the side.

Maddie turned back around and grabbed a hold of David's zipper, pulling it down. As his pants and boxers fell to the floor, David quickly kicked them out of the way. He looked up, and there she was… standing naked before him bathed in nothing but the soft, pale blue moonlight coming in through the open window. In that moment he felt struck by her beauty and vulnerability.

'You look perfect,' he whispered.

Maddie suddenly felt self-conscious. She knew he was looking at her, and despite the admiration she saw there in his eyes, she felt the urge to run for cover. Sensing this, David wrapped his arms around her in a warm embrace. He began to kiss her lips again, his tongue sliding gently alongside hers. They moved slowly until his legs bumped into the bed. He lay down, pulling her on top of him.

'How's this? Are you comfortable?' David mumbled, placing his hands on her hips.

'Mm-hmm,' Maddie said, already moving back and forth on the hardness beneath her. She was very much enjoying herself.

David was rubbing her arms and fondling her breasts when she reached down to help him enter her. She could feel him fill her void completely, and she sat back, moving her hips in rhythm with his. She was very close to her release, and then she felt it… tremendous waves of pleasure hit her… followed by a warm, tingling sensation all over her body.

'Oh David, David, David…' Maddie cried. Now this was music to his ears.

Watching Maddie was enough to send David over the edge, and he reached his climax just as Maddie's heart rate slowed and her breathing returned to normal.

Maddie moved herself off David and lay down beside him, pulling the sheet up over her shoulder, and resting her head on his chest.

'I am so glad that guy asked Nurse Bridges about sex during pregnancy. That was great, don't you think?' said David, maybe a little too enthusiastically, like he was king of the hill.

'Mm-hmm,' replied Maddie, not quite matching his level of excitement.

'I know… you're shy about me looking at you. But sweetheart, I gotta say, you are one good-lookin' pregnant woman. You have absolutely nothing to be shy about,' he said, planting a big kiss on the top of her head.

'Still shy, what can I say?' she shrugged.

'Well, I hope you enjoyed it… and that you'd be open to enjoying it again. It's been a long time… I mean, since we've been together like this…'

'I did… and I will… just not tonight.'

'Did you want to get some sleep? You must be tired,' said David, sounding more concerned than disappointed.

'I am tired… after work, dinner, Lamaze class… this here… uhm… what we just did…'

David sat up on the bed, turning to face her.

'Maddie, what we just did was make love for the first time in over five months. I'd say that's a pretty big deal, wouldn't you?'

David listened closely for any hint of regret in her voice.

'It is a big deal,' Maddie said, while propping herself up on her pillows.

'Are you happy?' David asked. 'Because that's what's important to me… that you're happy.'

Maddie reached out, placing a reassuring hand on his shoulder.

'I am happy, David. You wouldn't be here right now… in this bed with me… if I wasn't happy.'

'I love you, Maddie.' David gave her a big smile.

'I love you, too. I really do. And I know what's got you worrying… that I'm going to wake up in the morning and hit you with some pact. Well David, you don't have to worry about that. I promise, I won't do that to you.'

Satisfied that she would be careful with his heart, he turned and settled back down next to her. This time he placed his head on her chest… his arm, protectively wrapped around her waist, and their legs… tangled.

Before falling asleep, David whispered to Maddie.

'More than anything, I want you to be happy. That's all I really want.'

Giggling a little, Maddie said, 'Will you stop, David. I told you… I'm happy. Very happy. Now, let's get some sleep or you're liable to wake up with someone who's very un-happy and cranky.'

'Okay, okay… good night, Maddie.'

'Good night, David.'